Announcement:

I'm back in Malaysia!!! :)

   Okay, I know the first reaction of almost everyone will be, "WTH, aren't you just got back not long time ago?" or "too rich dy isit, go there for so short and then fly back again!".

   First of all, I am wondering what so big deal for coming back during Summer and also Winter. I mean like, come on, apparently not only me who does so, a lot of Malaysians are also like that what. My HK and Spore friends even fly back during Easter too.

   Secondly, the reasons I'm coming back is because most of my housemates will not be around, and I have tonnes of workloads that I can't bother to go travelling with other friends. Realising that the nearest place I could go is the beautiful but sad university campus, plus the superb UK weather, I don't want myself to die emoing in my room. So yea, here I am in my HOME country to finish my assignments and readings, and at the same time, de-stress. Since then, it is nothing really relevant with you guys, friends out there who think I'm crazy for keep on coming back. Disclaimer here: not bearing any responsibility if I am absent for any meet ups or gatherings. Afterall, I'm not intended to attend because I have lots of stuff to do. So yeah, stop zat-ing me for that and just treat as if I'm still in UK.

   Thank you for your patience.

   Cheers.

*btw, my first night in msia during this winter break was really fun. Glad that I have such loving family!* :)

It's December!

Like finally.

And on this first day of the month,
 Lisbon Treaty comes into force, according to my EU seminar tutor.

But that wont interest you anyway.

Something more important has happened!

Hometown Hainan Coffee is in Kota Damansara now !!! 

No photos at the moment till I go back. So be patient. And at the mean time, go support!!! :)

Hehe....:p

Good day !

I'm just wondering ...

why some friends who I used to close with,

are now not close at all already.

Hrmmm....

I tried, I failed.

I thought I can adapt to a new place well. I guess I've been too over-confident. After a year in UK, I'm regret to say that I still not used to the life here. I've tried to enjoy the life here, but failed. I feel so insignificant sometimes, till I don't think anyone will give a damneven if I suddenly disappear one day.

Maybe I've been pampered for too long before this. Was a princess since born, loved by parents and brothers. Even the friends in Malaysia, I know they cared about me alot. I can feel the warmth and joy whenever being with them. And I know I can turn to them whenever I need someone. Here, everyone seems to enjoy their lives so much, and I'm the only left out. What I can feel is only the cold weather with the strong wind...

Guess I will never learn how to be independent, how not to cry, how to be strong. I know I'm such a lousy girl. I've nothing good, I've nothing for myself to be proud of and stand confidently. I'm nobody. At least I know I'm nobody here.

After crapping so much, I know I still need to hang in there, for another 2 years in a place I refuse to call it a h-o-m-e.

Bear with my emoish mood, ppl.

Sign off.

Friday the 13th

is a bad-luck-day because of the day and the date, they said.

But I'm still here trying my luck of getting some opinions on an assignment of mine:

International law is not law in any meaningful sense of the term. It is best understood as a branch of international politics.

hehe=P

Fyi ( to those who are not law students), international law is basically dealing with the issues of international especially international disputes and wars.

Hahah, welcome any useful and useless opinions.

Much appreciated.

:)

So, why Law?

Met a Singaporean friend in Costa. Both of us were trying to study there while waiting for the lecture time.

Then she came to this question: "Actually why are we studying law?"  Because we love law? We love reading cases? we love reading regulations? Crap, who wouldn't want a better and more relaxing life? Undoubtedly, I have interest in law, but I can't see myself as a lawyer in the future. I thought I would be in business world next time. So Yeah, why am I still choosing such a heavy course. I remembered I told mum before, that if I choose courses relating to Design, I would always stay in cafes enjoying the life with a cup of coffee and magazines. Yes I love this kind of life! And if I choose courses relating to Maths, I would have life of "keep doing" instead of "keep reading", which I find life will be easier then.

Okay, so why am I choosing Law? Am I regretting?

Frankly speaking, I don't really know why am I always love burdening myself. Just like during secondary school, I could have chosen a simple and relaxed life, but I joined debate and had 5 years of hectic life. Where people were away for holidays, I had to stay for competitions and society's stuff. Just like during SPM, I can choose for the minimum subjects, but instead I've chosen 13 subjects to sit in SPM. I know I was a freak for taking up so many subjects without any valid reasons. But now looking back, I am proud of myself, for being able to go through all these when others have no chance to. Did I ever regret? No, not even a second. Let me choose again, I will choose to remain the same!

I am stubborn enough to always choose a harder route instead of a more relaxing one. I am not sure why so, but one think I'm sure of -- that I won't regret for choosing it. I've foregoed my right to have a relaxing life. I've chosen a life full of judgments, assignments and readings. I knew the 3 years in UK gonna be tough for me, especially when I'm not good in English. I knew it before I chose it.  You can either interpret it as I'm too brave to take up challenge, or I'm too stupid in making choices. Haha.

I love law, not as a career, but as one of my interests. I love learning and understanding it. But I hate memorising it, that's why I hate sitting for law examination. But who loves it?  So just bear with it, do your best, and move on!

I love law, I have no regret choosing it.
I am having a heavier life when I have a lighter option, but I have no regret.
I'm ready for the challenges. Good luck to myself! :)